Hi, I’m Marian Buck-Murray
If you are sensitive, scared, anxious, or blocked — you’ve come to the right place.
I’m here to help you honor your beautiful sensitivity, speak your TRUTH, and share your natural gifts. I’m here to help you align with your heart’s desires … and unleash your creative genius.
Why I want to work with you
My own creative genius was buried underneath piles of self-doubt, fear, anxiety, and negative mind chatter. A very sensitive person myself, I struggled under the weight of other people’s needs, opinions, and emotions. Throughout much of my adult life, I felt paralyzed by self doubt — which led me to work at a series of low paying jobs.
And even though I authored TWO Children’s Cookbooks. Taught very popular children’s cooking classes. Wrote and directed a play. And ran a number of community events. It was NEVER enough. I just couldn’t get past the crippling anxiety and self doubt.
I had moments, even stretches, of pure creative genius. But then, sure enough, I’d lose interest, or confidence, or a project would end, and I would fall back into that comfortable place of hiding and playing small.
Intricately woven into my experience was my decades-long struggle with auto-immune illness, surgery, and traumatic stress – all following my sister’s suicide when I was 17. Throughout the years of my sister’s illness, it was my highly sensitive, empathic nature that led me to take on, and hide, far more emotion than I could handle. So, I shut down my emotions, nearly completely. Years later, my body would use illness to express the TRUTH I was too scared to speak.
Finally, one day I decided I just couldn’t stand one more inch of pain. So, I got the help I needed. And with the help of some gifted healing practitioners, and holistic therapies, my body healed!
I had transformed my life. I had more energy. I opened my heart. I was happier. And best of all, my creative genius began to re-emerge!
Inspired and amazed by my transformation, I embarked on professional training — first as a Natural Foods Chef, next as a Holistic Health Counselor, and later as an EFT Practitioner. Now, finally as a Matrix Reimprinting Practitioner.
Business success, however, eluded me from the start. Hidden beneath my efforts was my hyperactive sensitivity, my inner critic, and piles of fear. Snagging me at every juncture. And I struggled. Big time.
I just didn’t understand. My clients were thrilled to work with me. My students loved my classes. But I never allowed myself to shine beyond those experiences. I would hold back my best ideas. I would hide and withdraw. I would sign up for one more online training course in hopes that something would change…..
And of course, everyone else around me seemed to be able to do what I couldn’t do.
What was wrong with me? I would ask myself. Until I finally began to see.
I was scared:
To promote myself
Of being criticized
Of offending someone, or anyone
That no-one would show up at my events
That I wasn’t as good as ‘my competition’
That I would never succeed (so why bother trying…)
Most of all, I was terrified of SHINING.
Once again, I got to the point where I just couldn’t stand one more inch of my pain.
This time, however, I was very clear – it was my critical voice and my fear of shining that were blocking me. So I began using EFT Tapping to tame my inner critic and my fear.
That’s when EVERYTHING changed.
I had more courage, confidence, focus, and clarity than ever before. I was able to show up in ways I never had before. Socially and professionally.
I spent decades struggling. I am now happier, and more at peace, than I’ve even been. And I keep growing. And, the deeper I move into self love and acceptance, the better it gets. By committing to daily rituals that nurture my sensitivity, and consciously aligning with my heart, I have been able to unleash the brilliance within me.
I believe that brilliance lies within all of us. Unfortunately, this brilliance gets obscured by the clouds of self-doubt, fear, and negative mind chatter. Once we clear these clouds away, our brilliance is there, ready, and willing to shine. I’d love to help you unleash yours.
Unleash your creative genius. It’s time.
My Training and Professional Affiliations
- New York University – MA Educational Communications and Technology
- Natural Gourmet Culinary Institute — Chefs Training Program.
- Academy of Healing Nutrition – Certified Holistic Health Counselor & Nutrition Coach, Faculty Member
- American Association of Nutritional Consultants – Certified Nutritional Consultant
- EFT Universe — Certified EFT Practitioner
- Matrix Reimprinting — Certified Matrix Reimprinting Practitioner
- B.I.G. (Believe Inspire Grow) – Member
- Mended Hearts Chapter 56 Volunteer
- Chambers Center for Wellbeing — EFT Instructor
- Wellspring Health Collective