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Clear, At Last.

March 19, 2013 by Marian Buck-Murray Leave a Comment

Just when I thought I had crossed all the hurdles, and was clear of heart problems once and for all, I began feeling the symptoms.  Was I imagining them, or were they real.  The old familiar jaw and tooth pain.  The throb in my left arm.  All happening when I would take a brisk walk, climb up a hill, do yoga, or  bounce on my mini-trampoline.

At first, I thought it was flu-related.  It seemed to appear just around the Holidays when I got sick with the flu.  So, I believed it would pass.  That I would feel better once I got stronger.  Or that perhaps, it was a cavity in my tooth.  But it wasn’t.  And instead of getting better, the symptoms got worse.

So I told my cardiologist.  He recommended an exercise stress test — which proved abnormal.

And that’s when I began to worry.  I worried that it was related to complications  from my last aortic-valve surgery, when my right coronary artery was impinged by scar tissue.  I worried it would mean more surgery.  That the stents used to correct the arterial impingement had collapsed — again.

My cardiologist didn’t know what to tell me.  He recommended a cardiac catheterization (angioplasty) to find out what was wrong.

So I had the catheterization.   And nothing was found.  Nothing at all. My arteries, my valve, my stents, were all beautifully healthy.  My blood appeared to be flowing perfectly.  Nothing appeared to be wrong.  Of course, I was happy.   All of this meant, no surgery!

But, despite my initial relief —  I was concerned.  Concerned that I had somehow mistaken my symptoms.  That I had just wasted time, effort, worry, and money on false symptoms.  I began to doubt myself.  And, I felt embarrassed.

Afterwards, I was determined to recover,  FAST.   I wanted to wipe the slate crystal clear.  So, I began exercising again. I alkalized my system with green drinks and seaweeds.  I cleared my energy with EFT.    But despite my determination,  my symptoms continued.  And I continued to waver between belief and disbelief in what I was feeling.

Then, at my follow-up visit to my cardiologist, all became clear.  According to my doctor, there is likely something amiss with my coronary capillaries. (What’s referred to as  Cardiac Syndrome X.) It’s a condition far more common in women.  It can be caused by a variety of factors, including post-menopausal estrogen deficiency.

Because capillaries are so small, they don’t show up in routine testing —  it can appear as if  nothing is wrong.  However, impaired capillaries can cause angina, and abnormal stress test results.  Fortunately,  because they are so small, they cannot damage the heart in the same way that impaired coronary arteries can.

For now,  I will take  the medication Ranexa, to dilate my capillaries.   And, as always, I will seek natural remedies to help me out.

I feel a lot better, stronger, and very relieved.  Relieved that I will not need surgery.  Relieved that my condition is treatable.  And most of all, I am relieved to know that I can trust my body to tell me the truth.

I am clear, at last.

Trust your body.  Listen to your symptoms.  Find health professionals who believe in you, even when the truth is hard to find.

To tap into your body’s truth, contact me for a free Intro-to-EFT (Emotional Freedom Techniques) session.  By skype or phone.

Be Well,

Marian

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Filed Under: Vibrant Health & Healing Tagged With: angina, Cardiac syndrome X, coronary arteries, coronary capillaries, jaw pain, stent, women's heart health

Stand Up

August 17, 2010 by Marian Buck-Murray Leave a Comment

Stand up & re-energize
Stand up & re-energize

It’s been a long while, but I’m finally back to blogging.   And I’m happy to say, I’ve officially dedicated this blog to digging out, standing up, and re-energizing.    For some karmic reason, I’ve been blessed with a life that has trained me to become a professional funk-buster.

This past April brought me some deeply personalized funk, in the form of Stent #2 being implanted in my right coronary artery.  Long, complicated story short, it appears that over-grown surgical scar tissue (from my 2008 aortic valve replacement) had obstructed and closed the artery.

Stent #1, in case you’re wondering, was implanted in July 2009, by my cardiologist, Mark Blum.  He re-opened my artery, which was 99.5% closed.  I was, and still am, incredibly grateful.   I knew I had been granted new life.

Unfortunately, at the time, I was completely and totally exhausted from the ordeal.   Even more fortunately,  I was able to re-energize with the help of healing foods and herbs.

When my artery closed AGAIN this past April, I was somewhat in denial.  But I had all the symptoms – fatigue, pain in my jaw and teeth upon exertion, muscle weakness, and shortness of breath.   So, very reluctantly, I dragged myself in to see my cardiologist.  And  ZAP.  Within 5 minutes of listening to my symptoms, he ordered a cardiac catheterization.  4 days later, he placed Stent #2 inside Stent #1 (the sandwich technique), to re-open my artery,  which was 95% closed.

Again, I am extremely grateful.  I know how lucky I am.  Truthfully, I am a little un-nerved that it happened again.   I can only trust that my doubly-fortified-sandwich-stent will hold.

Of course,  I am also feeling self-righteously p.o.’d  that despite the fact that my arteries aren’t clogged with plaque, and never have been, I have been diagnosed with CAD (Coronary Artery Disease).  When I complained to my doctor, he told me I have a rare condition for which there is no diagnosis.  CAD is the only one that fits.

“Just relax,”  I tell myself,  breathing deeply,  “and let go of this wound to my healthy-all-natural-organic  ego.”

Stent #2 ,  and its accompanying funk, threw me back into dark depths.   I began to experience the symptoms which made me believe that the stents were closing again.    I thought for sure I would need surgery to correct the situation.

After a few tense visits to my cardiologist, another catheterization, and frightful thoughts of yet another open-heart surgery, we determined that I was  ‘de-conditioned’.  In other words,  completely out of shape.   Depleted from months of lack of exercise, illness,  and low energy.

No surgery.  Thank God.

So today,  I am once again re-energizing my life.  I am so grateful for having the tools to do so.   As a gesture of my gratitude,  I have decided to use this blog to share some of my best-ever funk-busting foods, herbs and techniques.

Stay tuned to De-Funk and  Re-Energize your life.

Be Well,

Marian

Filed Under: Uncategorized, Vibrant Health & Healing Tagged With: artery closed with scar tissue, cardiac catheterization, Heart Health, stent, teeth pain and heart health

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