Faith. What does it mean to have faith? To be faithful? To stand strong in faith? To have unwavering faith?
Truthfully, so much of the time, I find myself wavering.
I ask myself, faith in what? Faith in a higher power? Faith in family and friends to show up when I need them? Faith in myself? Faith that everything will turn out all right?
Looking inward, I see different strands of faith stretching into many places. Some quite desirable, others not so pleasant. I see places where building my faith will assist my growth. Some, such as faith in my weaknesses, my errors, my mind’s inner critic, only serve to diminish me.
So, I ponder, where do I want to grow my faith. What is it that I truly value? How do I build my faith to expand my values? And where do I need to let go?
Listening to my heart, my list of values begins to form. My family, of course. My friends and community. My body and my health. The food that I eat. The air, the earth, the sun, the moon, and all of nature. The creative process. The healing spirit within me. My soul’s expression. The universe in all its infinite power. Peace. Love.
As I look at my growing list, I see my yearning for the expansion of my spirit, and alignment with my soul. I see my continual asking. And I realize, that when I ask without giving, without showing up, I limit my ability to receive, wavering my faith.
It’s in the places my heart so values, where I am called to show up. Where I am called to build my faith. When I neglect to show up, I neglect my heart’s values. That’s when faith in myself, Spirit, and all that I value, begins to waver. And, that’s also my cue to show up — perhaps in a way I haven’t before.
Showing up, even as I waver, is what helps me build my faith. It’s my continual practice of meditation that helps me build faith in both my intuition, and something larger than myself. Showing up to this page, even as my mind wavers, builds my faith in the ever-presence of creative process. And, as I continue to heal old wounds, I renew my faith in the power of love, and in the healing spirit within me.
Faith, I realize, needs to be cultivated. And sometimes, where our faith brings us to harm, it needs to be dismantled.
Faith is how I show up in life. I get to choose where to build my faith, based on the wisdom of my heart. When I show up to do my part, with grateful heart and deep appreciation, the universe shows up for me. Guiding me, teaching me, showing me the way. It’s in this place that my faith finds its ground.
In Love and Courage,